Saturday, June 28, 2008

Labels: my room and new PTP

Thursday, June 26, 2008

well well well... its been a busy hectic day at the office.. almost not much rest...(though having fun)

its 1 of the days where by i kinda jux dun wanna go to work? but was forced to? 'Moody'

dragged my self to work or book in, OETI.. dreaded.. real annoyed today.. but hey... guess wat.. all's nt tt bad...

enter the office the board looks messy(instructor n perm staff movement chart), since they were trying to squeeze writing words into tt small tiny box...(kinda sad i have to look at it daily)

but hey.. many guyz are nt in...(guess its commmon at the start of new phase) but jobs were piled up like mountain... starting with editing.. shredding... calculating.... photocopying..... and the list goes on...... (thank god i was at the MO in the morning 8-10++)

well.. tough it mayb.. my draggy feets have no time to rest but to work n walk.. kinda ache after a while... well tt's tt... lunch was at 1pm++ and hell we were famished(nt really, tired only)... no break at all....

crap my lunch weakness always comes on time percisely... ard 1.40pm++ worse den "period"... till 2pm++ i'll be like zombie or smth... i trust beh knows... he sees me like dying or smth..(mayb its the medicine tis time[ate at 10.40pm+])...

when home kinda early today... 5.45pm?(thnk god, i was the duty AS 'Auxillary Staff' fr today)
hope tml's nice too!

going for X-ray tml at CMPB.. kinda suck...
dun really knw wat the MO wrote bout my condition but well... its jux a scan... chilled..

today's shirley jiejie's daddy birthday.. so i hope they hab a happy time now eating cake? =P

guess i gonna surf a bit of other blogs... mayb sleeping soon.. nitez guyz!

Labels: another day passed

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I went to Alexandra hospital!!! (accompany someone there though)

Its hell!! waiting.. feels like rotting away... The doc in A&E call Wendy looks kind of chio... well nth there pretty much except waiting fr my fren to finish his treatment n go home.. plus he gt a day more MC(tml tt is)...

Fast Forward...

Well took 961... to bukit timah Rail Mall area to a restaurant call 'hooked'(too bad 4gt to take pic of its signboard) and i was the last!!!! as usual.. :P

Labels: 8 of us only, Secondary School gathering

Monday, June 23, 2008

Labels: Gd or bad? With a news

Thursday, June 19, 2008

i should really cut down on my blogging rate.. but hey.. who's complaining...

graduation day for my batch today.... felt sad... for the fact that people i knw n played with fr the past 3 months will be carrying on while i'll be re-coursing next monday.... they were gd frenz buddy... jokers... mates... well... the kind of guyz that u wanna meet in NS...

bye... Rallen,Nicky,Shawn,Alvin Chan,Kah how,Quek,Neo,Vane,Siew Kiong,Wilbur,Siang Long,Saha,James,Jarrod,Zuo Sheng,Chong Yao,Loo,Pun,Samuel,Ernest!
The 20 of them i congratulate them for passing the course and moving on out of the original 36 or 34?

but i was quite pissed today partly cuz of this.. haiz... my own fault for nt taking gd care of my leg... den been walking ard today so much that my leg's been aching since 1pm... haiz...

end of the day i think i offended quite a number of ppl... i really hope if they see this they will jux let it run... didnt mean much... haiz... oso that when i re-course... i'm the only old bird... feels kinda lonely.... sad.. =(

btw... a note... watched 'good luck chuck'.. dun even knw why the title has a chuck word when his main character is call charlie logan... nice movie(probably the best among the 3 i watch recently) at times make me feel so sad fr him.. especially when he decided that to luv someone the best way is to set her free.... [screw me man....!] i felt like crying till the end where he chased her to the airport... {and gt back together of course}

so another day gone with a leave tml to do some personal stuff.... watching portugal ltr with merc jie jie n lester... probably dan too.... bye guyz...

Labels: Graduation without me graduating

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

yes yes yes.. its jux yesterday since i posted.. but i hab the urge to write again... haha...

i really wanna get off on friday...
i really wanna watch dun mess with the zohan....
i really miss merc jie jie..(mayb we can go watch on friday night n watch portugal vs germany at 2.45am?)i'll be drinking with frenz b4 that.. so hope i'm still sober enough...
i really miss shirley jie jie.. though jux went out the weekend b4...
i really miss gyming... (hope this sunday i can go)
i really miss every fun things i do with frenz...
i kinda miss lester..(nope i'm nt gay.. his hair style)
i kinda miss dan...(his jokes.. laugh our ass off.. or mayb its jux him)
i kinda miss basketball...(probably restarting next month when i get a new ball)

wat i really really really want is to find a gal.... joycelyn yap....

been thinking the whole afternoon...
so here's a list of things i think i'm gonna change...

at least~
gym once per week...(my body's in bad condition)
play certain sports twice per month...(swimming mayb?)
go out with frenz once per month...(every grp of them)
talk to my mom 48hrs per month...(not hi bye though)
visit my grandma twice per month...(though i did more now)

at most~
bet $5 on anything per month...
go out 7 times per month...
go drinking once per month...(nt including wedding or engagement or special events)
do myself once per month...(probably wun even do it.. haha.. trying not to do any)
watch 4 movies per month...
smoke a pack of cigarette once per 2 months...(trying to cut down...) its been a week... jiayou!

now wat i wanna do the most is... watch good luck chuck!

Labels: Random things to get my nerve off NS

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

its my 1 day leave!~! and guess wat? i'm staying at home...

its been a good night sleep.. till 10 plus(kinda skipped breakfast)... lunch was good.. so been spending e afternoon watching 'P.S I Love You' and 'License To Wed', I knw.. both are 2007 movies but.. hey they r nice to watch....

1st one was recommended by shirley jiejie... well the 2nd 1 is cuz i didnt finished watching it last week...

watching [P.S I Love You] was hell for me somehow... its a real touching movie... but part of me told me nt to watch till the end... n part of me wants to...(is it so hard to watch a movie? fighting with myself to finish a 2hr movie) i'm kinda glad the staying part won me to watch it till the end...

well... it make me feel... strange{mixed with sad happy hollowness} but end of the movie i felt kinda calm... though nw when writing all this down makes me feel kinda miserable again...

so the search is on... and I WILL FIND HER! Jia You!!!

Labels: A afternoon at home

Sunday, June 15, 2008

its father's day!!! happy birthday to all father in the world!!!

and plus.. its my grandma's birthday...!!! happy birthday to her too!!!!!!! went there early to help out... (only thing i really did was.. hmm...) go sheng siong buy 3 24* packet drinks and paper plates n spoon... heehee...

well... was kind of playing maple all the time... nth interesting realy happened.. its jux like a usual family party... except tt i was banker at night playing blackjack(won 80cents) kinda stupid after sitting there fr so long...

nth much to post about... kinda sad that this morning didnt go gym(getting fatter).. was lying on bed dun wanna get up till 10++ ate breakfast and went back to bed lying there till i went to grandma house...[guilts coming over me]

well... after a few hrs of thinking....

i really wonder... {kinda scared too} if i find her... wat will i say? will she rmb me? will she even wanna knw me...? if i will stumble like last time...? will i lose courage? will she be overseas?
alot of questions with no definite answers... and honestly.. i'm scared... really scared... to the point where i question myself is watever i'm doing worth the effort? i dunno... i really dunno....

but i knw 1 thing... i wun knw till at least i find her... or at least get into contact with her some how.... or some way...

9 yrs of lost touch.. kinda hard to catch up.. but tt is nt the matter... i believe that.. i'll some how find her... and even no matter how much she has changed... she's still the 1 i believe... hee... =)

wonder wat merc jiejie is doing now? waiting to watch portugal? her ronaldo... haha... :P

Labels: Double celebration + a little worry

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Tiring after a day out.. or rather not enough sleep(4-8am) zzZZ

okay... went to woodland CPF board to defer study loan... den saw shirley jiejie n anthony!!(wat coincidence!)

so we went to the SATA there den home... went out later of the day... blah blah blah

went to orchard with them too... blah blah blah... kinda fun there... but wat i wanna post isn't all this..

jux now... at shirley jiejie house... i was touched when she asked me to her house fr dinner(if nt i sure eat instant noodle de)... den at her house.. i FOUND HER!!!!! in shirley jiejie's bro's yr book....

And well she's from 05S03 (strange class type name) and i confirmed her... will not post her pic... but its a START!!! and i'm really really happy!!!!!! but tired too frm all of today's event...

gonna sleep now... at least sleep happily!! hee... people from pioneer help me plz... no 1 frm my sec sch in the same class as her.. tt's kinda sad... but hope sm1 knw her frm cca or acquaintance...

gyming tml... hope can see her there(nt tt much hope though)

Labels: A tiring but happy day with a little surprise

Friday, June 13, 2008

Well its weekend! Was hoping leave will be approved on mon n tue..(not tt possible though)

So tonight will be another great night... will go watch soccer in town probably till morning(both matches seems good~ Italy-Romania,France-Holland) no Hulk today i guess.

Tml will be to CPF board to waiver my diploma fees... haiz... troublesome... dun ever lose your singpass or u'll be like me.. =(

today is trainee's day.. kinda like the recruits night in tekong... well ask ur bro or bfs bout it... so was quite entertained with the 1st 3 skits... den 4th onwards my sleeping bug came and attack me... so u guess so.. zzZZzzZZ

anyways... its like a graduation party for those who pass out of OETI completing their course.... sadly for me tt'll either me next batch or the batch after.....

so morning did sai kangs and stuff... saw a lot of ppl(giving out food... wat can i say)

so kinda sad tt i was blogging now instead of playing lan... but will play online later anyway... haha....

so was really happy tt shirley jie jie came back in 1 piece(alive n kicking no worries)
but sad fr her as her bf's going in to army this morning(or afternoon).. but.. hey... 2weeks only no kik fr her... haha!!!

Labels: Random shit bout today

Monday, June 09, 2008

Home from e devil's workshop (my work place)

Got so many things i wanna write down but it jux doesn't make me any better.. guess i jux had a very bad day there.. =( felt so heartache, so helpless, so trapped...

so the day went with me being crazy? => since i'm knocking my head against hard objects... i supposed so..

den went ard hitting things.. => white board, chair, pillar, desk.

finally okay-ed after lunch.. slept fr an hr or so...

i presume all this are caused by smth in me.. heart felt pain n stuff...

Story: A boy who had no courage
there's tis boy who had early puberty, ard p2?(jux tt height didnt increase much)
during p3 he had smth going on in him.... after he saw a gal... (luv at 1st sight?)
they were sitted far apart(quite though, the guy sits in the enter while the gal sits at a corner)
so the yr went by without them speaking even 1 line...

goes pass p4(streaming, class was separated evenly), of course they went through e yr with speaking yet... went all seems to be 4gotten...

p5 like a twist of fate... on the opening day, he was delighted, happy was no longer the word to describe... his streaming got him into the same class as the gal...
but they were of course sitted far apart(and i mean far!!!).. a few months pass and nth has changed... he still has no courage to go forth to talk to her(not even hi...loser rite?)

okay.. so story doesn't ends here...

the form teacher(teaches everything less chinese) was pregnant n had to go on leave(6months!!! wat de hell) so they had a pretty "A" lvl NIE relieve teacher.....

guess wat.. the teacher want to re-arrange their seats!!! and... well.. they had to get out of the class and like lucky draw (randomly placed a seat in the class)...
well the boy thought tt he had absolutely no chance of seating with her... (20 rows of 2 is like 5%?!?!) guess wat... 3rd name... he was goin in.. he sat down.. feeling low... (1-36 chance of any 1 sitting beside him...) he didnt want to knw or didnt want to see.. jux sank in to his arms sleeping on the desk)

2mins ltr he felt the chair beside taken.... when he slowly slowly lift up his emo-ed sadden face.. he turn to his right...
and wow.. u guessed it! its the gal!!! its like a drop of hope frm heaven but fr the 1st week the only thing he said to her was sry... (why?) make a guess... cuz the guy is a right hander while the gal is a left haander... so when writing the bound to hit each others hand...

life went on as they started talking.. read (Singapore's True Ghost Stories) together.. studied... played a bit here n there.... challenge marks(pri sch kids..) thought each other things(eng math sci chi) 7months of happiness i memory so dear n true to him.... and he thought it would go on to p6(which should)

life's like a joke... when he was very happy that he got top of the class.. the cher informed him that(nov) he will be moved to a better class next yr(awww.. sad rite?) he wonder if his gonna ever talk to her again... he had prepared to tell her how he lied(luv cant come out of his mouth)

so the day before yr end holi(he wanted to say out wat is in his heart)... he really wanted to... but sadness of nt seeing her n separating filled his heart... especially when he saw her in class... he was lost for words... he tried to muster courage to stand proud to tell her... but failed miserably to the defeats of sadness..(6hrs at sch)

he left her with a smile.. left the sch... left his 1st luv...
as he left walking home... he cried... felt hollow... felt sad... felt things he cant understand(p5 he is... 4 god sake)

so the story ends... as u guyz knw.. the guy is me... the gal i would call my 1st luv... really wanted to find her... really jux wanna talk to her 1 last time if i were to die the next min.... its been 8 yrs since den... seen her a few times in sec n poly life... but didnt had a chance to talk to her...

her name is.... Joycelyn Yap...(chinese name will not be revealed..)
left hander...
dunearn sec...
pioneer JC..
lives at hillview area?...
kinda loser rite? didnt knw anything bout her....
but if... if.... if..... any 1 of u guyz knw bout her.. inform me plz..

k la.. tt's fr today.. felt so much better writing tis things frm my heart... gonna go watch soccer ltr with lester, riden, merc jiejie and probably md?

and hope shirley jiejie have a good time at genting now... and pray they dun do naughty things.. or my 3rd god-son got hope liaoz... HAHA!!!

Labels: Emo-ing Day + Small story

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Getting bored all over weekend i decided not to write my own template...

was quite over due.. 050608 became 080608
3 days overdue.. so decided to kope a template from some where n tada.. my new blog...

its kinda late at night now.. so will be blogging soon.. gd nitez!

Labels: My NeW bLoG =D

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